Yes … it’s been a challenging time of late… maybe with the new moon dawning this evening things will change and all answers will be revealed!
Today has been a roller coaster of epic proportion… I wonder if a man really gets it! When after a year of deciding to put the idea of babies, actually it’s just the hope of one baby! One healthy happy full formed baby! On hold! mmm Just to step out of it all and allow life to take me down a windy road of my life without a baby..
My journey to motherhood has taken me on a path I never expected. Its been one of incredible joy and devastating loss. Funny enough I’ve been feeling so incomplete weird as that may sound.. That a baby will fill me up completely and make my days dreamy and wonderful I sound de-illusional. mmm Are we blinded by our biological clocks or is it the deep inner need to bring life, experience the birthing of life. mmm…To be a mumma I guess for all of us the journey is a personal one.
Where do we and how do we fill ourselves up?
This inner calling that drives us, calls to us in the dark night, where do we find peace with ourselves and our desires?
My husband has always held the practical card and me yes you guess it the dreamy hopeful, magic welding, earth mumma.. perfect combo really . Even with it’s challenges.
He’s been my rock, strong and formidable amazing really. Sometimes a little too practical. My question is how do we find balance when one wants to move forward away from the inner callings and the other is still honouring those inner desires.
How do we create the balance without falling apart, creating the wedge and disappearing into the void?
How do we find our peace and honour ourselves.. allowing that full expression. maybe the new moon will speak clearer..
blessings to you