life challenging and full of mystery….It’s been forever since I posted… and still working with the image of me breaking free, from my world that I have created to support myself through this challenge…. The challenge of creating…. creating a baby…. funny I say that i’m creating it! but I wonder if that’s really true… sure there is part of me getting ready preparing my body, mind and soul, guess the other 1/2 is the soul that’s coming… I may think I’m ready hell actually i’m way over ready! but the other 1/2 not quite here…. so wonder if I will be so blessed with having another baby…. funny as some people are blessed with the easiness of getting pregnant…of having many babies…. with no real thought…. just get pregnant, but for me it’s challenging….
some say I’m strong…mmm… guess there is strength within… yes I do have great strength…. I may not acknowledge it enough…. yes this is true… I do have amazing strength… everyday I work with mum’s and babies…. and it’s a strange thing…. I don’t feel that I can give up on my gifts… they keep me called upon so I keep working….there are questions within… will I be able to continue working with mothers and babies if I can’t have my own… not sure…i can feel the energy getting caught in my throat as I write… yes it saddens me deeply… so everyday I work with it hoping to find a little more peace within… that will brighten my world and allow myself to finally break free….
embrace the light within 